I am officially 37!! (As evident by the gray hairs I pulled out this morning, lol!) I’m seriously trying to figure out when this happened…seems like just yesterday I was excited about turning the Big 3-0 and now I’m closing in on the Big 4-0! I’m a little nervous about what the future holds, but honestly I’m ready for it.
Yesterday was a day of reflection for me. I thought about what I’ve achieved so far, dreams I still have, areas I’ve been defeated in, my strengths and weaknesses, my role as a wife, a Mom, a friend, the whole nine. I literally sat back and explored NICOLE. Just me. It was eye opening, but also encouraging to know who I am, and where I was, and how far I’ve come- personally, spiritually, and mentally. I would say physically too, but upon my self-reflection, I realized I’m lazy about eating right and I like food! Yeah, I want to lose 10lbs, but maybe I’ll re-reflect on that next year, lol! But it was kind of exciting to just sit back and think about ME.
And yesterday, the actual DAY, was awesome too! It was filled with surprises, smiles and laughter, but also small mishaps and my famous side eye. I walked into work to see my cubicle completely decorated by my sweet co-workers, but then I lost one of my absolutely favorite earrings. I asked for a chocolate cake with whipped cream frosting (I told my boys at least 100x this is what I wanted), but instead I got buttercream frosting, which I absolutely hate! And after my side-eye/stare down of how in the world after being told 100x did you get this wrong—we sat up all night and ate the entire full-sheet cake anyway! Turns out buttercream isn’t all that bad?! So my birthday was perfectly imperfect! Like life, my life! Highs and lows, mountains and valleys.
The biggest revelation I received on yesterday, was that through these 37 years of living, I’ve seen light and dark days, experienced high and lows, but through it all, GOD and my faith in Him has kept me! I heard this song yesterday (that instantly became my new favorite) that pretty much sums up everything I reflected on… and I’m certain it will inspire and encourage you as well.
My favorite part is when he says, “No matter what I have, Your grace is enough, no matter where I am, I’m standing in Your love!”
I’ve since listened to it on repeat, because it ministered to me so much! Prayerfully it’ll minister to you. It doesn’t have to be your birthday to reflect on your life to this point. Whatever mountain you’re standing on or valley you’re walking though…His Grace is enough and His Love will carry you through!
Ephesians 3:17-19 And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts, living within you as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love; and may you be able to feel and understand, as all God’s children should, how long, how wide, how deep, and how high his love really is; and to experience this love for yourselves, though it is so great that you will never see the end of it or fully know or understand it. And so at last you will be filled up with God himself.